Sunday, June 5, 2011

I love God.  I am so glad that he loves me.  And furthermore that he knows me.  These days I constantly struggle with the knowing issue.  I don't feel like anyone knows me truly.  I feel like I'm impossible to know.  It's so nice to know that there is someone who can do impossible things, and who actually does know me.  That's nice.  That's more than nice, that's incredible.  I love God.  I'm so glad he knows me.  I'm so glad he always takes care of me.  I want to do the same for him.  I hate it when I sin.  I hate it when I forget to love, forget to care, or care too much about myself when I could be caring about him and everyone.  I don't want to hurt him.  I don't want to do anything that would hurt him.  I know how bad he wants me, how bad he doesn't want to lose me, and I don't want to lose him either.  I feel his love all the time.  He tells me he loves me all the time.  It's there, and it's good that it's there because I need it.  I need it so bad.

I love people.  They scare me, because I know how badly they could hurt me, because I care about them.  I care what they say. I care what they think.  I don't know everyone, but I really truly wish I did.  I wish I knew everyone like God knows me.  I wish I loved everyone as much as he does.  I wish I could give like he does.  I want to be able to give anyone anything if they just ask for it.  I love people.  God has lost so many.  I hate that he has lost so many.  It's so hard on him to lose so many.  I don't want him to lose anymore.  I really honestly hope we all make it.  I want us to all be happy in the end.  I love this church.  I love this people.  I love the miracles of this world, and how everything when you really look at it is a miracle, and a sign of God.  I love that he stays with me wherever I go.  I'm so grateful that all three are always there to comfort me when I cry.  My Savior. My Brother.  My Holy Ghost. My Best Friend. My God.  My Father. I don't want to leave this church ever.  I don't want to fall astray.  I want to see them again.  I want to always see them again, and I want to see everyone else again too.  We're all a family.  I know that some will be lost, but that doesn't make me want that to happen.  We're all a family.  I'm so glad we can stay together.  In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

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